Wednesday, March 29, 2023

The Journey

It is so easy to focus only on the road you are traveling on rather then the beauty of the world you are traveling though. For so long, I focused only on the road. Every rock, every pothole, and every bump discouraged me. I prayed only to get to the destination and achieve the goals I set for myself; to get "there." All while I ignored the most beautiful part of the journey, the places I would have to travel through to get there. The seasons of striving, sacrifice, and trials. I discounted the lessons I would learn and the person that I would become. I forgot about me all together. The only focus was getting there, no matter what it took. 

 The places we are going always seems more valuable then where we are now. We are always trying to rush out of the moment; here hurts. Here is a constant uphill battle of lessons, stretching, and being uncomfortable. I am learning to be present in the now, even in the midst of the storm. There is still beauty in my journey. 

 There is still a lesson to be learned. I am grateful for the storms that I've gone through. I would have never thought that I could endure any of those battles, much less this one. I have learned to see myself again and extend forgiveness to myself for my mistakes. I've learned to not focus on where I want to go or even the people that couldn't come with me but look at myself and the world surrounding me in the moment and be proud of how much my journey has challenged me and how far I've come. 

 I know now that in the eye of the storm, when you focus on what God is trying to show or teach you in it, the storm becomes empowering instead of debilitating. I have uncovered layers of myself I've never seen before; true strength in being honest and vulnerable instead of portraying strength by ignoring my weaknesses. I am learning to see beauty in every situation; to find JOY in the one who created me for this moment. To have peace in the chaos. To live in this moment and let tomorrow worry about itself. It won't be perfect because I am only human, but I choose to be intentional. I choose healing; I choose happiness.