Look at me, every mark and imperfection. My body is a road map of everywhere we have been. The tough road of motherhood and wifely duties reflect on every inch. This body has endured so much pain, so much change. I spent so long hating this body.. Striving to start over and have the body I remember from my youth, the body that even then.. I hated..
ENOUGH, my body tells a beautiful love story, and all the places I’ve been. My body creates life and nourishment. My body will continue to change for the rest of my life but I will not be sorry or ashamed for the war scars I’ve earned on the way. My body is a constant reminder that I am so much stronger than I could have ever imagined myself to be.
Life has been tough on me but I am through beating myself up for the body I carry. I will love and care for this body, through the changes and the soft skin. Through the self inflicted scars where I drew pictures of my pain and unworthiness.
Look at me, take a look into my eyes and see that I am the same girl on the inside striving to find her sparkle again. I am the girl that loves and laughs and LIVES. When you look at my eyes and see her again, take a step back and see how much she has endured. See the battle scars she wears from the places she has walked by your side. Look at the person she has become because of the strength she had to draw out of her tired bones everyday, no matter how badly she wanted to quit. Look at the battles she fought in her mind; count how many times she has lost and how many times she won. See the person that she has been and the person she is becoming.
See ME. See the girl you love flourish and grow into the women she has always known she could be. One day you will see me again and realize the strength it took to pick up the pieces of myself and the sacrifices it took to be here. I sacrificed myself for the family we created and the life we wanted to build. I will never regret laying myself down to answer the call but now it’s time for the next season of worthiness and incredible strength. To show myself and my daughters that loving yourself is the most incredibly powerful superpower you can have. Now the adventure awaits, a journey of finding the ME that I am now; a wife, a mother, a warrior, Nancy.